Post celebration~~

As i promise before, today is the day for me to remember our moments together. I know this blog is kind of quiet lately but i will not break my promise. So here it is.

This is the 2nd part of your birthday celebration and the reason i call it a post celebration is because we celebrated your birthday a day later. It is on Sunday and we spend the day mostly at One Utama.

As Im trying my best to recall what happen that day , i want to say sorry in advance if i do miss out some parts of the story as this is the side of my story. It maybe different if it was you who are telling the story.

As you were a bit down by me for not celebrating your birthday as i have family commitment, i repay my fault by spending the whole day with you. We started off by playing softball. You were great that day and almost beat me in terms of how many did the bat hits the ball. =D. We do spend a lot of time there as we play both softball and baseball. My original plan is to treat you with A&W in Subang but you insist on me cooking for you.

As it was your birthday , i fulfill your wish by cooking the simplest dish that can be made by a guy. A spaghetti. I took you to my place and lucky for me there is no one around. So i can plan anything without being disturb by my housemates. As you were told to stay in my room until dinner , i quickly go buy some groceries and do some cooking. I managed to finish my cook on time and i add up the spice of the event by lighting some candles at the table. From the look on your face , i think i manage to surprise you but we never know if you are just showing some appreciation for me. Huhu. The presentation is good but not the food. I didn't soften the noodle to long and we end up not finishing the food because of the noodle.

That was the first time i cook for a girl. I know it didn't end up well but surely i will be determined to make it right if there is 2nd chance. Haha. We had a great day and it was only our 2nd day being together. It was a great start and i couldn't be happier at that time. I miss those moments.

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neither mad nor sad

im not mad at you.but i mad at someone else.im just a bit sad when u were at he/she side which was broke my heart.totally.again like you had did before when u were at tra's side.




sincerely.
big eyes

Confuse ....

Im not sure what had just happened.
And im sure i will not get the chance to know what happened.
But whatever did happen do make you mad.
I dont like seeing you get mad or sad.

If this problems involves me, im really sorry. I dont know what i did but the only thing i know is it makes you mad. I want you to be happy. You have a new life now and you are having a great time. I dont want your past to disturb the happiness you have now. If it involves my friends, im sorry on behalf of them. Maybe they are going overboard for what happened between us.

I love you. I would not deny it. I can only say i half move on. Sometimes im happy that you are happy with your life nowadays but sometimes i do feel sad thinking that your happiness is not with me. But life goes on. If we really love someone, we should just think about their happiness. Even if it doesnt involve ourself. Sorry if my existence in your life lately makes your newly life less happy than before. I will try to control myself. As usual, i will do what i should do. Wait wait wait until the time is right for us. If there will never be us again, its ok. Whatever i do , you have nothing to worry. You just go on with your life. Let me handle it myself. I will still take care of you from far away. And you can always find me if you need anything.

Im sorry and I miss you.

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Where It All Started

It was the night before your birthday , which was on friday night . Im in Shah Alam while you were at Cameron Highlands. The plan was to surprise you on your birthday. You knew that im coming there but you were just not sure which day. I tried to invite friends to join me but end up with just Fizie to accompany me. If Fizie was not around im not sure what will happen to me because it was a long journey , the road was so scary because of the darkness , there was only one car throughout the climb of Cameron , the zig-zag road of Cameron and lastly because its already midnight.

During the journey , we text each other and you still did not know im on the way to Cameron. There was one area where there is no signal for maxis and to make it worse , i was in that area when the time is 12 am. You tried to call me but failed. Im afraid that you will be mad at me and straight away go to bed as it is your birthday but i cant be reached. After a few minutes , i managed to get signal again and straight away give some good excuses(i think it was good). Lucky for me that you accept my excuses.

Fizie and I reach the apartment where you were staying around 1.30am. I wanted to surprise you in front of your apartment but the gate was closed. So i had to call you. At first you didnt believe me but once you go out to your balcony you saw me in front of the gate. The celebration was simple though as there is only me , you , Fizie and your brother. There was only cake and a white rose for you. just as what you wish for. I wish i stayed longer in Cameron but i had to go back in the morning. Maybe there will be another day or maybe not. We never know. It was a great experience for me because this is where it all started. Our first day in relationship. Thanks for giving me the chance and also giving a hint to ask you to be my girlfriend.

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24th

Every 24th of each month , it was suppose to be our anniversary. Eventhough we are not together anymore , i still want to cherish the day my way. This will be the day for me to remember you by writing a blog about any of our memories together. It can be anything from events to pictures. This is not a sign of me not moving on with my life. This is just to show respect to you and appreciation of our time together.

who?
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THIS IS YOU

whatever i do.
whatever i did.
whatever i didn't do.
is all because of you.

i give u all my respects when im with you.

why dont u, for once, respect me for who i am.

thank you for wishing my mum.



me,
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Congratulation!

Congrats on your new relationship. i never thought it could be this quick. Im sure you have think about it deeply. I wish for your happiness till the end of time. I'm just disappointed that you didnt do as what you promised. Im quite surprised about it. Just remember one thing , whatever you do or any information about you will never go unnoticed from me. Just dont try to make it a secret as  i will always know bout it. I will wait for my time to come. We will still be friends. It just that we never know when. You will have all the time you want. Once you think that you are ok with me, then talk to me again. I will be there anytime and anywhere for you. Taking care of you from wherever i am. Im not changing my numbers. So you will know how to contact me. An advice from me , be truth to yourself. Its not good lying to yourself. Till then , see you when the time comes. Hope that will be the promise that you will not break. Congrats again. Send my regards to him.

Sincerely,
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