"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was totally out of my control.”
Since the day i met you , i knew i like you but i never thought that i have the chance to be together with you and when that chance becomes reality , i was totally in seventh heaven . All the times that we spend together was so precious to me and i will never forget it till the end of time . How i wish we can spend our time just like we used to . But everything has changed since you ask for your freedom . I knew i did do wrong somewhere in our relationship . Maybe i did not treat you good enough or maybe i just did not protect you good enough from everyone in this world . I knew it was my fault . Supposely when this happens, i should buck up myself and show to you how strong i am to face all this challenges and fix all my problems so that we can be together again . To show you that im good enough to be your partner in life again .But miserably , i fail myself . Im not stong enough for this .
Since last month , nothing good happen to me . I played badly in my basketball tournament , i injured my knee , i injured my ankle , my dad admitted to hospital , i hardly walk till now , i lost my handphone and so much more . I lost my focus on anything and everything . This is not a good sign for me and now i may not sit for my final exam . I just do not know what happened to me and why this is happening . Im writing this in a blog because this is the only way i can get your attention . Im not your No 1 in life anymore but i hope i meant something to you. I need someone to talk and someone to care . I just do not know who should i go to . I do hope for you to be with me again in a relationship but for now , even as bestfriends is good enough to me . All i need is time for us to talk so that i can share my problems and you can share yours.
ps - some of the things that i wrote kind of "merepek" but i just dont know how to express it clearly ..
love ,
she is extremely lucky to have someone so sincere like you to love her so much.
ReplyDeletei wish everthing is just fine between both of you. how i wish you can stop the time when she asked for her freedom, so that you could amend all the wrongs occured between both of you. but this is what we called faith, dear. this is just a test from HIM, our creator.. because he knows, deep inside you, YOU can control all this, YOU can adapt with all this, YOU can become someone better. it is just the matter of time, dear. be strong, be alive. amend all the wrong things not lost to your own fear and lost. i'm sure she wants the best for you too. don't show her that you are weak, show her that YOU can change, who knows, maybe soon, she will be ready for you again. never give up dear, love is always possible. take care.